I guess no one saw Chapter 141 :P It was below the video ^_^ Nevermind... 2 chapters to read then :P
“Oppa… mashisseo?” Su Bin smiled at me as we ate.
We’d just finished unpacking and organizing our apartment. Our first dinner together consisted of ramyun and eggs cracked into the soup.
“Mashisseo,” I smiled at her.
The soup was tasteless, and I’d crunched on a few eggshells so far.
“Do you ever cook at home?” I asked her.
“No,” she said. “We don’t have time to cook. We always order takeouts or get some cup noodles.”
“I see…” I said, and slurped more noodles.
“Do you cook?” she asked me.
“Not very often. When the mood hits me, I’ll make sushi or kimbap,” I said. “Nuna would cook once in awhile.”
“Nuna? Oh… you mean Sierra?” she asked.
“Ne,” I said.
“I’m a bit jealous of Sierra onni. She has you and Skye oppa on each side, and then she has Jae Joong oppa right behind her.”
“I guess most girls would be jealous,” I smiled. “But she has a very stressful life. She has to keep up with the band, and maintain a relationship with such a busy boyfriend.”
“Busy boyfriends are good. They make enough money,” she smiled.
“I guess so,” I replied.
I have a feeling that we wouldn’t get so much airtime for this episode. Our conversations were pretty cold and pointless, and I am not feeling any screen chemistry with her; no one needed to tell me that. I just didn’t feel taken by her, but I had to act remotely interested and compliant.
We finished up dinner, and she cleared the table while I washed the dishes.
“Oppa… let’s go for a walk,” she said.
“A walk? Now? Isn’t it a bit cold?”
“I think a walk can help us get to know each other better,” she said. “Don’t you think?”
I contemplated for awhile, then conceded.
“Why not,” I said.
We had nothing to do in the apartment anyway. A walk might help us loosen up. Then again, I find her pretty loose. It was I who was wound up.
I suspect that it’s because I’m away from the band. Not seeing Skye and nuna for a day always felt odd. Even after those months I’d spent alone in Tokyo. What about my feelings for nuna? I think they’re almost forgotten. She seems really committed to Jae Joong hyung, and I won’t be surprised if they get married soon. As for my love life, maybe it’s time to rock the boat.
We went to that same park where we’d met up earlier today. Su Bin skipped ahead of me as if she were having the time of her life. I felt like such a grouch. She sure was committed to creating a positive image of herself on the show. Then again, when we were all starting out, didn’t we all want recognition in the same way?
“Su Bin-ah,” I called out to her as I sat down on a bench. “Come sit here.”
“Ne,” she smiled and skipped back to me.
“Are you cold?” I asked as she sat down beside me.
“I’m fine,” she said, and sniffed discreetly.
I pulled my right arm out of my jacket’s right sleeve, and put my arm around her before enveloping her inside my jacket.
“Better?” I asked her, and she just nodded wordlessly.
I think she was a bit shocked at my sudden gesture, and was silent for a good 5 minutes. This should get our ratings skyrocketing.
“Su Bin-ah,” I said. “What’s your dream?”
“Where do you see yourself in the next 5 years?” I asked her.
“Yea… what do you have planned?”
“Maybe I’ll be a mother,” she smiled.
“In 5 years?” I asked. “What about singing?”
“I can have children and still sing,” she said.
“I’d prefer my wife to stop singing,” I said. “I should be able to provide for my family.”
“Well… if I had a really successful husband, I can stop working,” she said.
“So do you think you can stop working now?” I teased.
“Hmm… you’re doing well, oppa. But not well enough yet,” she said. “Maybe in 5 years… I can stop working, and we can focus on children.”
“Sounds good,” I said.
[Su Bin’s POV]
Shooting had wrapped, and we were now doing our individual interviews. Shoei oppa insisted that I went first.
“How did it feel today?” the interviewer asked me.
“Surreal,” I laughed.
“How so? He was not as you expected?”
“He’s so good looking in person, and a real gentleman,” I said. “But it stops there.”
“You were expecting more interaction with him?”
“Not really…” I said. “As a trainee, I’d always heard that Shoei oppa was a quiet guy. He didn’t speak for the sake of making conversation. He was the kind of guy who liked to keep communication simple. So I didn’t expect much.”
“So did meeting him confirm your impressions?”
“He’s a bit friendlier than people had described him to be. Maybe it’s the pressure of doing the show,” I laughed.
“All that talk about children today; the both of you seem to be on the same page when it comes to family ideals.”
“Are we?” I laughed. “I guess it’s natural. This may be a fake marriage, but when you feel like you’re married to someone, you tend to start setting some ideals and dreams. You can’t get by each day just talking about the trivial stuff. Eventually, you’ll start talking about the matters of your heart.”
“So you feel that you’ve opened up more than him?”
“Maybe,” I smiled.
“Did anything happen today that made you feel like he’s opening up more?”
“Hmm…” I contemplated. “Maybe when he put his coat around me in the park.”
“And how did that feel?”
“Warm,” I smiled. “And protected.”
“Alright… thank you, Su Bin-shi. You may go now.”
I got up off the chair and left the room.
“You’re done?” Shoei oppa asked as I walked out of the room.
“Ne,” I replied. “You can go in now.”
“Alright. Bye,” he said easily, and went in without a second glance.
Today had been a day of mixed emotions. I can see that Shoei oppa was a good guy. He’s a bit cold, but still, he was nice. Whenever I thought of what Darren oppa wanted me to do to him, I felt sick. If Shoei oppa was going to be this easygoing all the time, it would be difficult for me to sabotage him. My conscience would not allow it.
I sat in the chair and faced the interviewer, ready for any of the questions she would throw at me.
“How are you, Shoei-shi?” she asked.
“I’m okay,” I replied.
“How was your first day of marriage?”
“I don’t think I can say much yet,” I said. “It’s barely 12 hours. I’ll need more time.”
“Do you like her?”
“She’s a very sweet girl. She’s cheerful and fun to be around.”
“Is she what you expect in your wife?”
“Erm… I’m hoping that my wife could cook a little better,” I laughed softly.
“What do you mean? Was there something wrong with your dinner?”
“I didn’t want to hurt her feelings, but the soup was tasteless and there were eggshells in the noodles.”
“I’m sure she knows that.”
“Right,” I smiled. “And so the key to a good relationship here is to pretend everything is alright.”
“Is that how you handle all your relationships?”
“I’ve not really dated since my debut, so if it’s based on my experiences long ago, it’s a good way to keep the peace in a relationship.”
“So the key phrase for today is ‘Pretend there is nothing wrong.’?”
“Ne,” I laughed.
“What about your discussion about children? You’ve talked about children at least twice today.”
“Ah… I think it’s because we don’t have many common topics,” I laughed.
“Not because you really do want to have children?”
“Not now, and not in the near future. I think I’ll wait till I’m 30 before I think of having children.”
“So the time is not right?”
“Do you think Su Bin-shi is the right girl for you?”
“Well… I have an ideal girl, and I am sure the media has more or less educated the public about her.”
“Your band mate, Sierra?”
“Ne,” I smiled.
“Ever thought about dating her?”
“She’s an ideal girl, and a girl I will use to measure other girls with. But the girl I will eventually marry will of course be unique in her own way. I just want her to have certain qualities.”
“Integrity, bravery, compassion, honesty and loyalty.”
“These are very strong qualities. Usually you find them in a man.”
“I feel that my other half should be able to support me emotionally. Beauty and youth is secondary. It’s a true and strong heart that matters.”
“And does Su Bin-shi possess any of these?”
“I’ll find out soon,” I smiled.
“Okay,” she laughed. “So why did you decide to keep Su Bin-shi warm?”
“What were the thoughts running through your mind when you did that?”
“She’s a girl, and she’s cold. I can’t brave the cold on my own, so I did the most logical thing. Share my jacket.”
“I see… any special feelings about the gesture?”
“I still feel it’s too soon to feel anything. But if you’re fishing for some comments, I’ll just say that she’s really small, and it was kind of nice to hold her.”
“It’s always nice to have someone to hold,” I smiled. “It’s something humans crave for. Especially when it’s cold.”
“Right,” she smiled. “Thank you Shoei-shi.”
“Thank you,” I replied and left the room.
Su Bin was waiting outside as I walked out.
“You’re still here?” I asked her.
“Yea… thought we’d go to bed together,” she said, then looked embarrassed when she realized that her words may have come out wrong.
“Okay,” I smiled.
The crew left the apartment. Su Bin slept in the master bedroom while I slept in the guest bedroom.
I couldn’t sleep at first, tossing and turning on the foreign bed. The wheels were turning in my head, but I wasn’t sure what was being processed. I missed my bed? I’m afraid that Su Bin would come and pounce on me?
“Go to sleep!” I told myself sternly, and another 10 minutes later, I slept.